Originally, I imagined this blog as a vehicle for showcasing some of the local businesses I frequented, along with some of the local life and art that I loved. Of course, in the process, I’d have the opportunity to showcase my writing skills and, hopefully, my devotion to commas. But, in truth, this blog is an experiment.
I’m experimenting with style, with content, with timing, with tone and with transition. And, in truth, I’m experimenting with the baring of the broader experiment of deliberate lifestyle upheaval. As Neale Donald Walsch would say, “When everything changes, change everything.”
First up: changing my mind.
After spending the month of December in a state of constant internal conflict about being laid off—Do I go with anger, bitterness, depression or relief? So many choices! So much time to choose!—I came to one conclusion. How I feel is irrelevant. What I produce is key.
I already organize my time, my space and my relationships such that my best use of time is usually spent on the best sources of fulfillment. (Note: fulfillment does not necessarily equal feeling good, as the most rewarding of activities and accomplishments are sometimes a pain in the ass to get to and through). But with plenty of time now on my hands, one thought persists alongside the desire to create something more than the hustle: How can I more efficiently organize my time, my space, my relationships, my exposure to outside influences, my finances, my friendships, my fun and the deliberate dismantling of everything I “know” to be true about what constitutes a life worth living so that I can get busy changing everything else?
Or, put another way, how quickly can I fuck this up?